Friday, July 28, 2017

hard to go with flow

My Turkish relatives are bringing out the Turkish in Anne too.  They’ve cried together about her health.  Her back is hurting her, she is sweating a lot, and her heart is pounding.  Baba is hard to manage, beginning to lose his mind, and everyone seems to have forgotten about his sugar problem.

I don’t know what to do with myself - or more particularly, my emotions when it comes to my Turkish family. 

I am torn in my desire to interweave our cultures together.  I am disgusted when I see others reject integral parts of Turkish culture while inserting themselves here in this land, schools, culture.  And I am frustrated with the culture of my own Turkish family, rejecting the very ones, and I love doing the very thing I hate.  

I don’t know the answer - but I’m working on it - on a personal level, professional level, and philosophical level.  


Just not very successfully because its not all cultural - some of its just me: I want to feed my own kids, I have different mops for indoors, outdoors, and the bathrooms, that is not a bowl - this is a bowl, please put suncream and hat on your own kid.

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