they're coming...

Baba is about 73 years old.  I say about, because actual birthdates are commonly fudged in Turkey, and not so important to anybody.  I’m not even sure he knows what year he was actually born in.  I just know that he is about the same age as my father, but much more childish.  I complained to my father about this once, and my father answered,

“It’s a gift.”  

I guess it's a gift I haven’t been able to appreciate yet.

My in-laws are coming on Saturday.  I’m not sure how I feel about this.  I’m not sure how I feel about anything these days.  I don’t have any pressing goals on my mind, I don’t think I’m living very purposefully) – I’m just continuing day to day, enjoying the routines and my kids and I have no special desires to win something , buy something, go somewhere, or meet someone famous.    I can’t say I’m waiting for anything, or looking for anything. I’m just plugging away on the outside with a baby plugging away on the inside.

Goals for 2016:

Have this baby – healthy and covered in peace

Get the kids to fall asleep in their own beds without the nightly battles

Find a job that will suit me and my families needs

Reconcile things in my heart

Write more meaningful things.

But, I can’t focus my writing because I am so tired.  Maybe meaningful will start tomorrow.