38.4 Weeks

When Tolga and I got married - I had this feeling as well: wanting to slow time down.  I may be the only person in the world the walked so ridiculously slow dow the aisle (video to prove it) on her wedding day because I didn't want that moment to end.  

Of course I'm tired.  I and awake every hour or two because of heartburn, kicking, uncomfortable on one side...and then the other, having to go pee, the kids waking up and coming in - and kicking me too.  I have more and more moments throughout the day where its really hard to get out of a chair.  And then walking after I've been sitting in that chair is more of a waddle trying to ignore the weight baring down on my bones.  But hey - this shouldn't be easy.  I mean this is a BIG DEAL.  

She's coming...

So I'm torn too - excited for the moment, and afraid for it, and sad that it will all be over too fast.  These are life's big events - events I am trying to appreciate each moment.  So many other times in my life I wanted to fast forward to the end, but not here - when Teoman and Tomris were born Tolga and I kept saying to each other:

"Look, he's ten minutes old"

"She's been on this Earth for three hours".  24 hours.  5 days.  1 month.  2 1/2 years.  

We went to the doctor today for a check-up - everything looks fine.  She took another ultrasound - which I added to the fridge (I have about 30 ultrasound pictures on our fridge to which Tomris keeps pointing out and saying: "That's my baby sister!").  The doctor guesses she is about 3.4 kilos now - she may be our biggest yet.  And she monitored the heart as well.  The baby gave quite a kick in response to the cold gel - and we sat together for about ten or fifteen minutes listening to her heart rate rise and fall.  

She's coming...

Listening to the baby's heart (and yes, the nurse hooked up wrong, they fixed it later)