sharing when it's hard

Do most people seclude themselves when going through hard times? I know I do. What is it about life's trauma's that makes us withdraw?

You wouldn't understand. There's too many things to tell, at this point its going to just sound like BLEH! I don't want to complain. I don't want you to stop liking me because at this point I don't like me. I don't know you well enough. You don't know me well enough. No one wants to see how ugly I feel right now. There's nothing you, or I, can do about it. I want to be stronger than I am.

And so on.

The thing is, I really admire people that are open, honest, and vulnerable. It's like we forget how to be this way in relationships, and slowly forget how to live this way. It is a truer strength than a Swedish nod that everything and everyone is fine.

Some people you just know will make it. And some people, I worry about. Those that can't open up we worry about. But those that can give voice to their struggles encourage me. Two touched me and refreshed my soul in spite of the pain being shared. I guess I felt this way because I knew their sharing meant they were healing. They are the ones that are going to make it.

I can only hope to be so "strong."