it's a ...

I'm enjoying being pregnant. I'm not sure I would have felt the same two years ago, it was definitely a process for me to come to this point. And now, Tolga and I have lived it very much together. Even before we were talking about marriage we were talking about kids. Tolga asked me if I had any names picked out - I guess because he already had one. Since then we have gone through a process that has made us ready to have a baby. We have gone to doctor's appointments together and share the same silly grins with every visit. We laughing because I am always hungry and at my growing tummy ... which is hard to tell if its from the food or the baby. We learned yesterday that we are going to have a boy. Tolga put his hand in the air in the triumph, and later said he would have done the exact same thing if it were a girl - he was just excited.

And for me, since learning, its been strange going from the sentence of "our baby" to "our son" - it's becoming more real I guess.

I started back my first week of work. I came home with a raging headache the first day. I think I always do, but my headaches seem more prevalent now because I'm trying not to take medicine - which isn't working out on days like Monday. I think it was just being overstimulated. I didn't do much that day, but seeing everybody again, talking, and sharing my news - these are all exhausting things for me. But the week got a little easier, and my colleagues are giving me great support.... feeding me, opening windows, carrying a bag, making the bus driver go slower .... it's a little ridiculous, but sweet.

And today begins another week's holiday so we will be off to Kusadasi by bus tonight for the end of Ramazan celebrations.