learn from it

I have the complete confidence of my supervisor, and thus the confidence of many others related to her.  It makes me think about how these things come in cycles.  How unsuccessful I felt at my last job, and what a switch this place is.  My supervisor dropped in on my lesson today - it went well except for my pregnant brain that forced me to run back to the classroom five times because I kept forgetting things.  After the lesson, she said, "I loved your lesson," and hugged me.  I felt like I was supporting her with the hug more than her supporting me.  She was tired.  I think my coworker made her tired.  I wrote all the lesson plans and he's been following them, or trying, but falling behind farther and farther.  He has been difficult to work with, making me all the easier to follow and praise. Over and over I am thankful this year and how much it is restoring my confidence and enjoyment of teaching.  My enjoyment and success here is always tempered by the memories of my failures.  Memories shouldn't dampen my enthusiasm or cast doubt and suspicion on my successes.   I think they are supposed to make me a better person, aware that I am not invincible, that it is by grace that I live each day.  But, I'm not sure that I'm quite there .. . yet.