Tolga went to Elazig on Thursday. He drove there to take care of some complicated problems. He was very stressed about the trip for many good reasons, but the reigning reason was he would be leaving me. And, "I haven't done that since we were married."
I didn't mention at the time that he left me for two weeks when we first moved here too.
I did mention that I don't mind being alone. Tolga had called his mother and asked her to come and stay with me. I think Turkish people in general don't believe in being alone, but it really goes against my nature, as I need alone time. I cannot be with people all the time. Even at school, I will find an isolated room where I can read or grade papers, or simply listen to music with out talking to anyone.
I am also the reverse. I am very sociable and love my colleagues, but I credit this to my alone time.
I want to go for walks myself, I want to cook myself, I want to shop for myself . . . yes, its probably a good thing that I can't stay at home and indulge only my wants. And my wants are so petty in comparison to Tolga's concern. So the in-laws are coming Sunday it seems, and another adventure begins.
They're going to sleep on my couch and watch dramatic news programs on my TV.
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