Three Things

I don't want to write, but I don't want to increase my habit of not-writing. So I will write briefly about three things.

1) We are on the verge of deciding to stop making payments on most things as it seems to be an endless uphill battle - especially with no regular work. I have begun to wonder if it is more wise to begin to save and pool what little money we have. We aren't paying our mortgage, we won't be paying our maintenance, we've been paying credit cards that keep increasing our interest and lowering our limits, and there are always those surprise bills (like: surprise - water leak; or surprise! medical bill from 2 years ago that insurance somehow never paid) - and in the end, our debt is only growing. It's a bad feeling not being able to make payments, but it is a hovering stress that won't change - particularly without jobs and so it seems to make sense to pool our money to pay for what is necessary: the home we and our family is living in, and cash for immediate needs.

2) In the television show "Meet the Tribe", five members of a tribe from a remote island are brought to America to learn about life in the USA. The members go from wearing loin cloths to Western outfits - and their observations were humbling:

"Your cows will not live well nor taste good if they don't eat grass" (Commenting on the feed concoction given to the cows).

"Those medicines going into the cows will be going into you. That doesn't seem good." (Commenting on the antibiotics being injected into the cows).

"It's a tragedy that with all this land, all these machines, and a fat wallet - with all these things you die like everybody else." (Commenting on the seemingly incredible wealth of the farmers).

"It looks like a cow but has the hair of a man." "It looks like the Devil!" (After stumbling across, and running away from, a buffalo.)

"Do you know Tom Navy? We want to bring to him a message of peace - to help America lay down its weapons. Guns should only be used to shoot animals. Not people." (Members repeating the mission given to them from their tribal chief for legend has it that a man named Tom Navy, from America, came to their tribe during the Great War and brought peace among the tribes and thus, the chief has commissioned the members to do the same, return the favor, to America).

3) I love my husband. It may sound redundant to write it down, but I am amazed everyday by such a gift. I have always felt loved, but I am finding such great strength in having a partner in life. Each day I am loved and affirmed by Tolga, it is a humbling revelation about what it means to be in an active relationship.