The Miser

I used to be good with money. In fact, I've always had it. I've saved and spent with specific calculations and fairly accurate predictions.

But now, my confidence is kind of blown, and all my plans seem futile. I still try to budget and plan in seemingly bleak situations. Still trying to control the uncontrollable. Still trying to convince my husband that I would be most happy if we didn't spend any money at all except on the bare necessities. Tolga on the other hand has continued to live. Not carelessly, but he is sure to visit his family and get what they need, he is sure to buy me things - frivolous things that I enjoy. And he is sure for us to go get coffee and fish once a week. He spends every last cent every month without regret.

I have a strong urge to save. I even have a jar full of coins that I don't touch. Tolga raids the jar regularly for our morning poacha (a cheap tasty pastry).

I think about this - what if we saved every month? What would be an advantage? It seems you can lose it whether you do things right or wrong, so I'm not so sure if there is a right a way any longer.

Maybe we should live in the moment . ..